Cheating On Your Loved One: The Art Of Heartbreak

No, this is not some article on how to cheat on your spouse or on your girlfriend/boyfriend. This article is about how it feels to be on the receiving end of a cheating "other half".
First things first though. Some of you may recall my little story about " Anna" the alcoholic who I was trying to get sober and off of the streets.
Due to events which have taken place in the past 48 hours, I have decided to use her real name from this point on. Why? One reason will be to shame her if she even has any such thing as shame. Another reason is because I have a very real need to vent in public. I am very angry, hostile, and I am hurting in ways that I could never imagine thanks to a cheating partner. And, I feel very,very mean at this point in time!
Terri Ellen is the name of the person of interest here. I met her on the streets as some of you are well aware, and I took it upon myself to try and help her out of her rut. Drinking excessively and living out in the streets is not a thing that any woman should be experiencing. Things started out simple enough, but along the way something happened that should not have been allowed to happen. We fell in love with each other. Other than the usual argument over her drinking habits, we had been doing fine for the most part.
This posting may work better if you just read the letter which I am writing to her.

" Terri Ellen,
I have many question to ask of you, but, I do not know where to even start. I've known you for six months now and I thought that we where doing well considering all of the other bullshit that we have had to put up with. Things haven't been very easy for either one of us, but, the better things in life are never easily attainded, honey.
You went, while I was working, and got high on crack and then you fucked the man that you were getting high with. An ex boyfriend at that! The one that you kept dissing because he had broken your arm once before. Remember telling me that when we first met? I sure do.
You have no excuses, but the reasons that you have givien me are nothing but pure BULLSHIT!!! You got aroused by the crack and so you decided to fuck this shithead? You knew what that crack would do to you, so you went and did some with this asshole anyway, while I'm worrying to death over you because you could have been sick, or dead even. I just went through a different emotional state when you went to jail and it took 4 days to find you! Have you no fucking conscience, you tramp?
Who the fuck do you think that you are to play with my feelings for you, in such the way that you have?
When we where sitting on the bus and you told me that you had smoked that crack and then that you had fucked this punk, the life left me. The light in my eyes went out and I wanted to kill you. Damned you you bitch! Everything that I did was not just for me, but mostly for you, and us as a couple. I spent most of my time working my ass off just to get us the things which we needed, so that you would not have to do without. You know this better than anyone. I've done everything for you and this is the way in which you decide to repay me. By fucking somebody else! That is one very low blow, darlin. Do you have any idea how hard it is for me to sleep at night since this went on? Let me fucking tell you, okay? Do you even care at all? Have you ever?
Every time that I close my eyes now, I see only one thing Terri. That would be you and that punk screwing each other. Mental torture can really show you some horrid details when it is allowed to.
You took it upon yourself to not even consider me when you were getting high and doing your other shit. I never crossed your mind, did I? Let me tell you one other thing while I'm here Terri Ellen. They do not make pain medication that works for this sort of pain. It eats at me from the inside non-stop without so much as a brief break. I look at you now and I just want to puke my guts out all over the place.
I'd have moved Heaven and earth for you and you know this as well. I've moved/removed alot of earth for you Terri. How do you show your gratitude? You rip my heart out of my chest and you squeeze it into a blob of jelly. Then you stomped on it after throwing it to the ground. That was still not enough honey, you had to also spit on me and then shit on me for good measure. You have left myself to die from your actions and I still do not think that you care one way or the other.
Guess that I'll just have to wait and see what happens next.You have lost all of my trust as well as the care which I had for you.
Thank You Terri Ellen for what will be one of those Thanksgiving memories which will never be forgotten. it couldn't have happened without you. (Continued )

Barack Obama's Pledges, And How He's Doing...

...and this story comes to you by way of http://www.usatoday.com/news/washington/2009-10-28-obama-promises_N.htm#table. As you can see, I'm still having a small problem with Blogger posting the links to the story. What is one to do?

Tracking delivery on campaign promises

President Obama made hundreds of pledges to get elected. USA TODAY's Richard Wolf reviews some:

Taxes

Promise: Offer tax cuts of $500 for individuals with income up to $75,000 and $1,000 for couples with income up to $150,000. Obama said 95% of working families would benefit.
Quote: "This is a tax cut, paid for in part by closing corporate loopholes and shutting down tax havens, that will offset the payroll tax that working Americans are already paying." - Janesville, Wis., Feb. 13, 2008
Status: Obama settled for $400 and $800 as part of the $787 billion stimulus package passed by Congress in February. The non-partisan Tax Policy Center estimated that 91% of families with children would get tax cuts averaging $538. Overall, 75% of taxpayers would get reductions averaging $385. Obama's proposals to close loopholes and target tax havens are pending in Congress.

Jobs
Promise: Offer $3,000 tax credits in 2009 and 2010 to existing businesses for each full-time employee hired.
Quote: "I will give American businesses a $3,000 tax credit for every job they create right here in the United States of America." - Canton, Ohio, Oct. 27, 2008
Status: Obama dropped the idea during stimulus negotiations because of concerns in Congress that businesses could cook their books. As unemployment worsens, however, the White House is reconsidering it.

Home ownership
Promise: Create a $10 billion Foreclosure Prevention Fund to help people stay in their homes. Give a tax credit to middle-class homeowners to cover 10% of their mortgage interest every year
Quote: "This fund will help homeowners sell a home that is beyond their means, or modify their loan to avoid foreclosure or bankruptcy." - North Las Vegas, Nev., May 27, 2008
Status: Obama created a larger, $75 billion program in February, a month after taking office. It includes a one-time, $8,000 refundable tax credit for new homebuyers that expires in November.

Type in the link at the begining of this post for even more stats on Obama's financial regulation promises,healthcare, and stem cell research along with a host of other campaign promises which Obama made.

Wall Streets Bundled Life Insurance Policies...

... are another attempt by those gouls on Wall Street to pass off a different product to you which will more than likely screw you in the end. Remember those mortgage backed securities?
http://www.dailykos.com/storyonly/2009/10/28/798049/-STOP-THEM:-Wall-Street-to-Bundle-Life-Insurance-Policies

STOP THEM: Wall Street to Bundle Life Insurance Policies
by War on Error Wed Oct 28, 2009
Wall Street banks, beaten down by the financial crisis, and propped up by
government bailout money are looking to get their securitization machines humming again. USING LIFE INSURANCE POLICIES.
Personally, I find this repulsive, ghoulish, and possibly dangerous. Please hit the orange REC button on the right side so others can see this. And while we have time to stop this.
The earlier the policyholder dies, the bigger the return — though if people live longer than expected, investors could get poor returns or even lose money.
Either way, Wall Street would profit by pocketing sizable fees for creating the bonds, reselling them and subsequently trading them.
http://www.nytimes.com/...
Call Congress and the SEC to end this brain child NOW, before it launches. Life and death should never be something Wall Street gets to gamble on.

And if Wall Street dices up and securitizes life insurance policies, like they did with mortgages, who will be responsible to pay a Life Insurance claim? Could we see life insurance bankruptcies erupt at the very time the boomers claims become due?
How many ways could seniors be manipulated to die sooner? How many would have to die to insure a large return? Appalling as these questions are, I believe they must be asked.
Indeed, what is good for Wall Street could be bad for the insurance industry, and perhaps for customers, too. That is because policyholders often let their life insurance lapse before they die, for a variety of reasons — their children grow up and no longer need the financial protection, or the premiums become too expensive. When that happens, the insurer does not have to make a payout.
But if a policy is purchased and packaged into a security, investors will keep paying the premiums that might have been abandoned; as a result, more policies will stay in force, ensuring more payouts over time and less money for the insurance companies.
ibid, nytimes
DISCUSSION AND CONCLUSIONS
There is a growing demand for a long-term hedge against improving annuity mortality. We have shown how innovation in swaps and bond contracts can provide new securities which can provide the hedge insurers need.
http://www.allbusiness.com/...

Swaps
The same cash flows, [B.sub.t] to the insurer and [D.sub.t] to the bondholders, can be arranged with swap agreements and no principal payment at time T.
ibid, allbusiness.com
Yes, there will be Hedge Funds that will make new fortunes Betting on our Lives!
HOW GOOD IS THE HEDGE?
We point out that, given the distribution of survivors, there is very little variance in the cash flows.
ibid, allbusiness
I have a hard time seeing the words Hedge and Swap used when the product is a life insurance policy.
Our life span and death date will be packaged in swaps and insurers offering bonds to investors.
It is deja vu Mortgage Default Swaps, only lives, not homes will be the foundation for the Wall Street traders. But, you can't reposses a life!
MetLife could be the next IndyBank if I understand this Wall Street scheme to bet on our very lives.
For a list of failed banks you can go here. They failed because of the Wall Street Housing Bubble:
http://www.fdic.gov/...

Republicans Have Lowest Ratings In Decade...

... and hopefully that is because the citizens of the United States have figured out that voting GOP is voting against their own best interest.
This comes from CNN's plitical blog, but, blogger being what it is, will not post the damned link!

Thirty-six percent of people questioned in a CNN/Opinion Research Corporation survey released Friday say they have a favorable opinion of the Republican Party, with 54 percent viewing the GOP negatively.
According to the poll, 53 percent have a positive opinion of the Democratic Party, with 41 percent holding an unfavorable view. The survey indicates that favorable ratings for the Democrats have dropped 5 points since February, with the Republican number slipping 3 points.
"The Republican party may still be battling the legacy left to them by George W. Bush," says CNN Polling Director Keating Holland. "They have also spent a lot of time in 2009 working against Democratic proposals. That hasn't left them a lot of time so far this year to present a positive, post-Bush message. Of course, there is still plenty of time for them to do so before the 2010 midterms."
Nearly seven in ten people questioned say they disapprove of how Congress is handling its job, with 29 percent saying they approve. That's a drop of 6 points in the approval since April.